Broken.

does anyone know that feeling of waking up in a morning to feel like your stomache has eaten itself leaving you to feel like shite? well i felt this exact way this morning. so i thought i would ring a friend who i hold close to my heart, maybe make me feel a little better and all i do is feel even worse. hes not the same person anymore and he said that i changed? all i wanted was someone to make me smile this morning but all i got was the cold shoulder per usual and i ended up getting wound up again, due to the fact im going through a lot lately and hes the one who makes me smile. i would go to the ends of the eart to make him happy, make him laugh and smile, and what do i get in return, nothing. the term for this post "broken" comes from the effort i have poured into making this friendship and the old relationship work, and it comes back to me in shattered pieces, try as i might and i get no time back out of it, wasted effort? i think so..