Stress.

I'm starting to feel like I don't do anything right anymore..everything I do I seem to get it in the neck. I currently broke up with my ex David.. and I'm trying to live life and not think about it.. but its because I'm enjoying myself that I seem to be getting shouted at.. but I know its none of his business anymore but I feel like I have to explain myself to him.. I can't handle this anymore! It's starting to drive me to insanity... Cause my brain is in constant overdrive. :'(

Given up.

This is all.

Peace.

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Arghhhhhhhhhh

You know that feeling of when you have done something wrong... Apologised...forgot about it but yet people keep bringing it up... Yeah. I'm in that situation right now.. noones perfect but yet because I made one slight mistake I'm instantly a Dick... Like they haven't made mistakes in the past that have hurt me... There's no need for the hypocritisism... Will someone pull this knife out my back cause the person that put it there clearly dosent care what I've been though and what goes through my head....

Peter Pan Syndrome.

Its known by doctors all over the world.. "people who cant / wont grow up"...

i havent been told i have this but while speaking with my parents today i had a sudden LIFE LESSON punch to the face. I'm nearly 20 and i cant stop dying my hair stupid colors and being a baby about practically everything. Deep inside i want to be my natural hair colored self... but i also want to express myself for the person i am.. im addicted to art and being different is what i long to be.. but it seems like im doing it for the wrong reasons. i dont know. i dont know what i want to do i guess... but personally i enjoy being different, seeing peoples faces light up when they see my hair.. the look on their faces when they see the vibrant blue or pink or purple.. but when i look at myself in the mirror.. and think long and hard about it.. i dont know what im doing with my life.. it seems like... im trapped in a body i dont want to be in.. i dont feel pretty.. i hold my head down walking past people because i think they will laugh at me or call me a freak. i shouldnt care as much as i do.. but i cant seem to help it.. i want to be like the people in the magazines.. gorgeous long hair.. amazing smile etc.. but im not.. im a miserable teen from wyke in bradford.. unhappy with everything. ey well. till next time guys.



Peace.xo

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420

Let the sun shine down upon stoners across the globe.. for today being 420! Roll up a fat one.. light.. inhale..exhale and pass it to a friend. Share the love for all things chiller.. become one with your surroundings.. feel the earth move and hold your joint high for all things Rasta.  "When you smoke the herb...it reveals you to yourself - Bob Marley"

Why the word "Parents" and "Bestfriends" are the same...

Ann-Louise Feeney + David Stack..


The two people i will always have in my life.. the two people who i can trust to the ends of the earth.
They help me out when they can.. they are there to comfort me when im down.. they cheer my up by being the silly buggers they both are.. weather its a joke, pulling a face, or my mums dancing.. they say "if only you could choose your family" i wouldnt change my family for noone.. they are the most unique, outgoing, hilariously funny pair or people you could ever meet....

i could never thank my mum and dad enough for everything but i can say sorry for everything ive put them through.. weve all had our ups and downs and our fall outs.... but despite it all.... they are still beside me 100% of the way.. even if i have tattoos they dont like or piercings they cant stand.. im still their little girl.. and im going to stand tall beside my mother and father till the very day i die.. because noone knows a relation/friendship like mine with my family....

i hope that we stay together as a family till its our time. because noone can replace David + Louise


Not by a long shot.


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Long time no type.

Well, its been a while.. things have changed.. some things have got better.. other a hell of a lot worse.
im glad to announce the reconnection between me and my ex-boyfriend Dave! he has changed a lot for me and i can feel myself getting happier.. if thats possible! im so happy in my relationship right now.. no lies.. no sneaking around.. i havent even checked his phone or facebook once.. thats trust right? and on the down side.. i had a visit to the hospital.. due to a recent overdose.. my organs are failing. i didnt tell my parents why i went into hospital.. i didnt want to worry them.. they have been through enough.. but the sheer shock of finding out that your organs are failing and they dont know how to prevent it.. it brings a hault to your life.. makes you rethink things.. i know its a minor change but ive started drinking a lot more water.. trying to eat healthier.. McDonalds always catches me off guard.. but i need to start to think about my life... the people i have around me.. the family i have... all the troubles and worry i have done to people by hurting myself.. i want them to realise that i love them so much and im not going to let this hold me back... i want to live my life how i did before.. not moap around... crying...feeling sorry for myself... im an ambitious person... i want the world to see me for who i am.. im a  happy 19 year old who loves dancing the nights away and having someone to cuddle up to on a night to keep me warm... im a comedian.. the clown of the class so to speak... i like to see that im making people laugh.. and smile... and genuinely enjoying my company.... i like to be there for my friends.. any problem... time of day/night... im there.. maybe not when im asleep... but i try!.... i want my family to know that they are my life and soul... without my parents i would be nothing.. i wouldnt be alive today... they are my everything and i appreciate everything they do for me... they're not just my parents... they are my best friends..... anyways im blabbin'.. to cut to the chase... my final words of this post will be.. "Look out world.. heres one panda that refuses to be extinct..."




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